Tonight's checklist
Sadness
Cold
Chills
Anxiety
Missing my friend so much
So much has happened. I dont even know where to begin anymore. The past couple of nights have been bringing so much misfortune for me. It rained it's ass off here on Monday night. Not one of those storms that leaves a few spinkles on the concrete...no. This was a storm that was more like a flash flood..........and flood it did.
Violent lightning, thunder and hail. Raindrops the size of concord grapes (if not bigger)
When I elected myself to take the studio in the back of the house, I was stoked that the owner said yes. I love (and still love) that room. It's large, comfy and had fresh paint, fresh carpet and lighting and so many other cool things to make it more like a studio apartment.
Late Monday night, after putting an entry down in my journal, I could see a huge flash light up the city. Then a LOUD round of thunder. I quickly powered al of the houses machines down, turned off some lights that had been left on and went to go get cozy. As I went blow out my scented candles (and do my normal girly routine before getting into bed) I pushed my bedroom window curtains up to fall asleep to the lightning and sound of rain. It's relaxing to me.
I heard the drops pick up harder and faster which I tought was cool. Then my smile turned into a pout. I started pouting because after I got all nice and comfy I realized that I felt a few minor drops of water hitting my face. Great. The house's owner warned there could be a few leaks in the roof. He also said not to worry about them. I used what I could to collect the leaky rain water, shoved my bed to the other corner of the room and when I woke up a few hours later I found that there were several more bad leaks which had already made the carpet wet). Again, I did what I could do. I borrowed my roomates shop vac and sucked up as much water as I Possibly could.
By the time the second storm hit, it was too late. The rain got in under my private entry way, through many leaks in the roof and even through the top of one of my windows.
I was overwhelmed and it was so cold and wet in that room that that I had to sleep on the livingroom love seat for warm shelter becaue when I called the owner of the house to let hm know what was going on with the increasing water damage he said, 'Diana, you dont think I know what's going on in that room right now?" as if I was being dramatic. So....with a landlord on vaccation until tomorrow, I have no idea how to act or behave. Everything got soaked. In the next few days, the owner is replacing the studio's roof and carpet. All I ask is that it never leaks that bad again. The man knows I have Lupus ans the moist cold air DOES NOT HELP ME AT ALL. His snide little comment was, "I guess if this is a health hazard to you, you can always move out".
Now, whoa. I pay rent and utilities and help him out. I've done everything I could be to be nice to this man too. He knew I was terrible tired and cranky from pulling up so much water from the shop vac so he suggested having me get help from the roomates. (fat chance except for tom)
It flooded my room so bad that even tonight as I type this.....the carpet is STILL wet. Im looking about about 1-2 weeks before he'll fix this. I dont pay this much for this bullshit.
It's cold in there and I feel like im getting sick already (and I just got over being really sick too). This shit has gotta end.
I almost wanted to stay at Lances house or Danielle (Boston) but figured it was MY problem and not theirs. I stuck it out until the second storm hit and by that time.......my beautiful room went from damp in some areas to extreme flooding. All I could do was hang my head and cry. Its cold. It's damp and god hates me even more...
I spend so much of my money just to keep it and keep it up.......and for this?!
I just wanna go home already.
I just want a hug and know that this is gonna be alright...somehow. I loved that room. Now everytime I hear a phrase with the word rain in it or that rain is on the way, I panic and figure out what Im gonna do (since it floods in my room only).
Oh yeah, and that crazy ass hippy I live with saw my 'angry' side. That chick is the most inconsiderate woman alive! In the middle of me taking house towles to clean up the rain water I tell her (as she gets out of he car with her 3yr old to sleep on her shoulder, "Tonya, im gonna need the washer and dryer open because I have soaking wet bedding and clothes I need dry within the next hour." She gives me her fake as fuck smile and says "okay" and takes her child to his room. She emerges no more than 3 minutes with two large loads and proceeds to wash them. This woman should be beaten within an inch of her life! I remind her dumb ass again (since she does laundry several tims a day). She's ran the washer/dryer 5 times a day, runs the dishwasher 3 (because she too lazy to handwash anymore and doesnt conserve energy).
Last night when I realized it was 11:45pm and that she had been doing laundry since 10am that morning, I threw my wet bedding in when she lecutred me about how I should ask nicely if I needed them open.
The girl is on crack! Thats all I had been doing since the night before last. She kept on picking at me and how I was acting out/frustrated (and much like her younger sister) and I told her we were done. I told her that nobody in the house can stomach her any longer and we're having a house vote as to how much she wan use these appliances (as well as all of what we contribute to the house items) and she was pissed off. Oh well. I was the one who's room got flooded and needs a new roof and new carpet. That idiot laid a towel on her window. Give me a break she had a flood! I did, NOT her. She's so into her self that she's lost all consideration for others. We (all 4 roomates) will not speak to her because she's a little thief too.
I just want my warm cozy bed, warm dry studio and dammit I want a hug because I never fucking get one when I need it the most! I hope this all passes and I pray for it to get better fast. That much water and damage is in no way safe OR acceptable when you pay as much as I do. *sighs*
COMMENTS
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Iamthedevil
12:01 Oct 30 2010
Excellent... I will take a page from here if you do not mind, and go some where else as well... We need to be else where sometimez... " Earth calling, pilot to co- pilot, look @ the life on thiz planet, no sign of it, all I see iz a bunch of smoke flying, - it iz what it iz!!!